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Consider how it feels to stop searching. Notice what is happening as you stop striving to discover or prove yourself. The mind may convince you this is self-defeating, that you are running away, but from what?
Slowly, something inside reminds you things unfold and come at you from all sides. There is nowhere to go. Another option exists- to stop observing extremes. The watcher evaluates experience. As you feel the watcher disappear, urges to do or be things falls away. Life transforms itself. Awareness simply is.