Get over self-indulgence

You may seek to experience more peace and harmony within yourself, and yet, be unwilling to admit, examine or address what isn't working.  This isn't simply a question of what isn't going your way.  Re-assess what other people tell you isn't evolving in appropriate directions.  Even if you disagree with others, your attention may be drawn to areas of your perception or beliefs you hadn't thought about before.  What benefits could you see in all of this?  Its useful to look beyond your own envisaged outcomes to see how you could be enhancing or hurting the lives of others, in ways you hadn't anticipated.  How would that knowledge make you feel?

At this point in your life, you need to be willing to perceive and assess your behavior in new ways.  Adaptability reminds you different forms of adjustment exist.  Consider attitude, perception, and willingness.  You function and make choices that define a certain quality of life.  You go places, see people, and embrace activities with a degree of freedom.  You have continued to make choices which enable you to maintain that quality of life, or at least, you have made valiant efforts.  So, how would you know things weren't working? and after all, not working for whom?

1) Your lifestyle isn't sustainable.  You may realize deep down that you spend more than you earn. Its a vicious circle to use credit cards to pay other credit card bills.  Remortgaging or borrowing from 'Peter to pay back Paul' isn't reducing your debt.  Your choices do the opposite.  Sustainable living creates a circling back to functionality. You need to realize taking all trees from your lot and not replanting, won't leave anything for next time. Greed has negative repercussions. It's not just you in the 'here and now' who is affected by your choices. You teach by example and you deprive others when you hoard. Imbalance may lead to a change in the scales, not simply by creditors, who auction your belongings, but also by environmental crises, as ecosytsems adjust in order to survive.  These hints imply your behavior and desires for ownership may be distorted.

2) You lack clarity.  A concrete sense of direction is missing.  Underneath it all, you desire lucidity.  As you evolve into a clearer state of mind, you'll no longer feel lost or confused.  You can't ignore wrongdoing or a sense that you may have gone to far.  You can't change the past, but you control what you decide now.  No behaviors are coincidental.  You may go to extremes because you feel disconnected to the world and your true self or, you're initially blind to the consequences.  You simply need to grasp how your mind offers you clues to set things right.    

3) You're ready to admit the truth.  Events have unfolded in such a way as to empower you to notice the world around you is evolving.  You come to recognize you have been changing your own rules to get what you want, and the world has responded by depriving you. To feel you possess people, things and situations you hope will remain in your life, suddenly strikes you as inappropriate. The fear of losing what you cherish has led you to seek to hold far too tightly.   

4. You realize your view of security has been too rigid. You begin to recognize that raising your own awareness of your present reality reveals what you have to do.  Its time to develop courage to go against the staus quo, to behave differently than you have done before.  Your fear of losing what you think you have has taught you that you don't posess anything. You only care for people and things for the time necessary for you to learn what they really symbolize and tell you about yourself.