If you wish to move into a new place of freedom, you allow yourself to be happy and free regardless of what is unfolding in the perception.  The very thing you are creating is releasing that which you outgrow.  You are unlearning, coming to unknow yourself.  The new things you are discovering change how you view Self, how the world seems to be unfolding.  Every moment you are changing your relationship with Self, your understanding of what you are. Let go of what the mind seeks to grasp. Bask in the uncertainty.  Step through the curtains with eyes wide shut. Whatever comes up reflects what you are now letting go.  Brace yourself. Give birth to a new version of you.