Wherever you are, you have the ability to observe and perceive partially or impartially. You view things with or without desire. You perceive thoughts, concepts and identify with them or, identify with nothing. You discern love and hate as opposites or as reflecting the same underlying message. Fullness and emptiness are the same.
Notice whether you exert effort to understand, whether you struggle to listen with the head. Notice that the feelings that bother you are actually thoughts in disguise. They are drawing your attention to another kind of sensing directly from the heart. The mind sees things based on conditioning. Can the perceiver of everything be perceived? That which is unchanging always speaks through you. Being does not experience. It is the most intimate existence. Allow senses to open wide and know.