Every goal may appear justified in your views.  You can choose to experience your own sense of victory or other perceptions.  Amidst your reflections, I would encourage you to consider these fundamental ideas:

1) - Reframe the worst things that have happened to you as the best

2) - Find comfort and reassurance when you have no answers 

3) - Recognize you're never helpless 

4) - Accept that purpose exists everything that happens

5) - Focus on why you make choices not on what they are

6) - Realize Higher Forces aren't obliged to explain why you're alive

7) - Expect the unexpected in everything from feelings, emotions to events