Entries in calling (2)
It is common to ask, "what should I do?" and "What do I want?" The desire may be a job, transition, opportunity, relationship or something else. Be aware you do not perceive your own best interests. A deeper look reveals goals on many levels conflict.
Notice underneath all appearances, all voices in the head are the ego. The judge who makes the rules is the superego. The ego either follows the imagined rules and knows rage, or breaks rules and lives in fear. Most people live according to belief in their own rules and make all decisions based on them.
Something deeper is calling you. It is not a voice in your head. Its unrelated to what you absorb through the physical senses. It is the call of your heart. You cannot know where this silent guide is leading you or what the outcome is to be. The whole experience requires surrender and complete trust of the unknown. This unfolding is beyond choice. It is the divine flow.
Listen closely to the call that is deeper than the mind, the emotions, deeper than anything anyone can explain. As you act out of motivation deeper than personal, egoic gain, you are orienting to what is natural, and what simply feels right. All tests of the ego invite you to be true to selfishness (egoically based on fear and desire) or to be true to selflessness (based on nature and pure love that is true being). Live without resistance.