On some level, every human being rejects aspects of the true self. Why? Only you can answer such a question for yourself as you choose to be honest and attune to the messages you are always given.
Negative thoughts or emotions draw attention to discomfort. This actually draws attention to what you reject. And yet, human beings have free will. You do not focus on certain things by your own choice.
Consider that all human beings have a mystical side yet not everyone accepts mystical parts of the self. Why? Fear of the unknown. Human beings are conditioned what to accept and reject. You listen or not.
Soul knows you as an energy being of peace and joy now. As you permit mental training to mould you into what you are not, you shift focus away from the timeless beauty and unconditonal love you are.
As you attune to how you really feel, you consciously make decisions in alignment with that or not. You have reasons for listening to the mind or the heart. Every experience is meaningful for its lessons.