There's no point to respond by offering excuses grounded in your past. Its history and thus, can't be changed. You may not realize it though, but the fact you have that history means you're probably repeating the same errors in your present. Maybe a sense of instability rocks your boat? Do you allow inner conflict to get in the way?
1) Believe there's another way of perceiving than you already do. Your viewpoints are always grounded in what you think you know and experience that reinforces what you've done. Since this hasn't yet created the wealth you greatly wish for, there must be another way to get it. In fact, what if all perception as you know it was actually unnecessary? Think outside-the-box you created. See what happens after that.
2) Grasp that true and lasting abundance comes from being charitable. You may have heard the law of the Universe that says you need to give in order to receive. Options exist. What if you donate 1$ to each website you visit that leaves you with positive vibes? Such a gesture may seem rather insignificant. Yet, as many people choose to follow your lead, think of the wealth you'll all create for each other.
3) Stop denying your own guide or seek new sources. Temporary contentment is grounded in what you sense you already have. Could you open your senses? You will begin to generate more of what you intend the moment you clarify what's hidden behind your own ambivalence. Means to aquire wealth will present itself to any mind that truly wants it, so long as not guided by ego logic or its own drive "to get."