Perhaps you feel you need permission from someone to take the next step in your growth process.  What do you feel you must do before you can improve on who you are? You only answer to yourself.  No person is going to give you permission.  This might really be your imagination playing tricks on you to prevent you from getting to what your heart and soul yearn to do for you.

From a young age, maybe you were morbid.  You may have created excuses for why you just refuse to find the time to push a little harder, read a little longer, think a little deeper or go that extra mile to stretch a part of yourself.  Its a matter of deciding that is what you will do. Taking time to build on what you know, to expand on what you see, is like a way to celebrate your life.  You can find numerous ways to express gratitude for being alive, for being here to grow.

You may have experienced people brush you off by saying things like,  "later," "next week," "another time," or even  "someday."  Yet, life teaches you many such supposed postponements just get perpetually postponed.  Its like the avoidance strategy.  How does it make you feel when people give you the cold shoulder?  This treatment may seem to make you feel as if you don't matter, like you aren't a priority or, you aren't worth that person's time. 

Turn the tables and look at you. If you silently tell yourself similar things, like, "I'll get to that personal growth seminar when you get to it," or, "I'll read that new motivational book and get organized when I have time," then what are you really saying about how much you value yourself?  If you refuse to spend time getting to know yourself, your strengths and weaknesses and you're unwilling to work on trouble spots, you will always stay as you always were.  Choose to move ahead instead.

"How much of human life is lost in waiting?" ~Ralph Waldow Emerson